I also do not have a body made for running. I had a gait analysis, and I am a pronator, big time. Even with the right shoes, I still have knee and hip pain if I run for more than 5 or 6 miles...sometimes less. :( Last year I made the mistake of pushing myself too hard. It's kind of a long story, but basically I made a stupid mistake with my sock choice the day of the half marathon, got blisters the size of gumballs at mile 4, had bad form the rest of the race, and hurt my hip very badly. The worst part was that I only took about a week off and then went on to run my fastest 10k 3 weeks later. Now, even though I think it was totally worth it. (I beat my pr!) I could not run the Nebo half in September because my hip was still giving me problems.
So, that was just a long way of saying that I'm going to try a tri! lol. I'm a bit nervous for the bike part though. I love riding bikes, but not when racing...scary.
Last thing for today. I was going through my journal a little bit today, and found this from an old fortune cookie. "You cannot love life until you live the life you love."
I'm sure some people out there are thinking that I'm obsessed with this stuffed, or that maybe I don't know what I'm talking about, or would she just shut up about running already. The truth is that when Greg and I were eating whatever we wanted, and playing video games for hours and hours, I was still mostly happy. It feels good to do whatever you want. But I did not love my life. I did not feel good about my body, my career, and most days I just felt inadequate, and that this was not who I wanted to be.
Running changed me in a way I cannot fully explain. I can honestly say now that I love my life. Nothing's perfect, and it's never going to be, but I'm no longer letting myself down. I accomplish goals everyday when I say I'm going to run at a 6 pace for 15 mins, and I make it for 20. I can tell you that I am amazing, and can do amazing things, and so can you! I can also tell you that my body is amazing. I put it through so much wear and tear, and after the first 3ish times of running 13 miles, I'm only sore for about a day after. Long distance running is the only time that I have felt truly connected mind and body. Once you are at mile 11, and you think you can't go any more, your body keeps going. It won't let you down, and it knows what you can do. It even knows that if you are truly determined you could keep going 100 miles like some of these ultra runners. lol. Anyway, I'm now, mostly, living the life I love. Doing and eating what we wanted brought momentary happiness, but having self discipline, and participating in life has brought us pure joy.
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