Back in the Groove

Well, I'm back. :)  I'm not the best at keeping up with blogging but, I thought it would be a good help as I'm starting to get back into training for races.  Short version of the past year and some- I got pregnant a few months after my first triathlon, was told I had low fluid, stopped exercising except for occasional walking because of this, had my baby at 26w 7d, feel into a deep dark depression, and have been getting back into things in the last couple of months.

I have a half marathon, which I'm so not ready for, coming up in 2 weeks.  I think a whole lot during the day about running, eating, lifting, etc, etc, and I just thought I should start putting it down somewhere, mostly for my own amusement.

Running completely changed my life.  I learned that when I was feeling sad or crappy I would get on the treadmill, run my guts out, and then feel a hundred times better.  So what do you do when you can't run?  I'm still not sure I know the answer to this question.  Because of my emergency c-section, I had to take it pretty easy for a few weeks.  I tried running slowly on the treadmill after about four weeks, but every bounce from a foot landing sent repeated pain to my incision spot.  I felt discouraged and realized I needed to give it more time.  Time..bleh.  After about another few months, I was completely and totally miserable and unhappy.  One day, I don't remember why or when, I just woke up and got on the treadmill again.  It was a much better experience, and although I was sooo slow, it felt good to be moving my feet again.  I started doing it a few days a week and slowly started feeling like me again.  I felt as though I shed a little darkness with each step that I took until finally, I was me again.

So there you go :)  When I started running back in 2010 I say it saved my life because it helped me to actually live instead of just eat and watch TV, and again it saved my life by helping me get over the most challenging event of my life.  I love running!  It is the most freeing feeling in the entire world!! I don't get it from any other kind of exercise.   So now off I go...